(Originally posted in 2012)

I hope you will read this because I am writing it to you. If there was ONE THING in the entire world that I would ever want you to know….this would be it. If there was one last thing I could say to you…..honestly….this would be it……and after reading all of your comments all weekend HERE…..my heart is so full (as are the hearts of every one of us at BGC) that the only thing I can do to ever even BEGIN to thank you is to tell you this very very very special thing that I really have never ever planned on sharing until I started reading those beautiful words that you wrote that shall be printed and bound into a book that I shall keep beside my bed titled “WHEN IN DOUBT”…..because ohhhh how I doubt sometimes.

There is an ancient parable (you know how I love stories)  that dates back hundreds of years….maybe thousands….one that I first heard when I was a little girl but that I didn’t truly even begin to understand until I had been alive for nearly 40 years myself…..it is the parable of the GOOD SHEPHERD…….as sheep herding and caring was such a common occupation…this parable was so relevant that many years back………..the whole basis of it is that the Good Shepherd had 100 sheep and ONE lost his/her way……and the Shepherd left the 99 and went after the ONE….

This story has been of such great importance to me that I actually painted a picture of it to hang in my home to remind me every day of it….

I painted it to remind me that forever and ever and ever for the rest of all of life……we must always be on the lookout for THE ONE…..because after you know the terror of being the ONE who is lost, who feels trapped in the lost-ness….and then the unexplainable relief of being the ONE who is found….it changes you….and you can never turn your face and your life from searching out the ONE again. I painted it mostly to remind me that at one time….for a very many years….I was the ONE. I was the one who was lost in the dark and in the lies…in the despair and in the fear.  And….I was lost……….and then LOVE saved everything and TRUTH saved everything………..and somehow if I clung to the Truth and to Love…….I was ok….I WAS FOUND and not lost. So….if the TRUTH and the LOVE are what pulled me out of the dark of the lies and the despair……I knew for sure that if we all could give more LOVE and TRUTH of who we all really are…….that no one would have to feel lost or trapped.

I am still the ONE from time to time….ok, pretty often actually, ok, …..daily I veer off course……but LOVE and TRUTH are infinitely patient and always come back for us….always find us…always ask us to put our arms around their neck while they carry us back to the rest of the fold.

I wanted to tell you…..and I haven’t until now because I wasn’t sure if you really knew or not……that during those very dark and scary years when I was lost…when I waited in the dark wondering if I would ever be found again……..that I promised that if I was found I would do whatever it took to find and help others who are lost too…..and tell them that there is ALWAYS a way back……and make sure that they knew that they were THE ONE when it was time to be THE ONE. The Good Shepherd came to me, bringing love and light and reminding me of the Truth of who I really am in the form of friends, family, books, miracles…….the Good Shepherd came every time. The Good Shepherd IS LOVE.

I know FOR SURE that life is on your side….that truth is one your side…..and especially I know with every single thing in me that LOVE is on your side. When you call out….in whatever form you may do so….prayer, meditation, journaling, hoping, wishing………there are all sorts of wonderful things happening to conspire in goodness on your behalf…….because YOU ARE THAT IMPORTANT….YOU ARE THAT LOVED. I know this to be true in a way that no one could ever take that away from me….ever……….I KNOW it is true that YOU are THE ONE whenever you lose your way…..and if you lose your way one million times…….LOVE will always come back for you.

Soooooo….what I wanted to tell you…because I have cried more tears this weekend than I have in a very long time while reading your comments….one after another that said I FEEL LIKE YOU ARE WRITING THIS JUST FOR ME……….that yes….you are THE ONE…….you are THE ONE that every one of these truths are being written for. When I was in the arms of LOVE when I was so lost, and when I am so lost….these are the very words that LOVE whispers into my ears to help me find my way back……….all that I am doing is writing them down and we are sending them out to YOU…and to KNOW that you KNOW in your heart of hearts that you really are the ONE they are written for means everything…….that sometimes we are the sheep in the fold…safe together with each other, and sometimes we are the ones who are lost…….and EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US IS WORTH GOING BACK FOR. YOU ARE WORTH BEING THE ONE.

So when things happen that may seem too good to be true…….and you let yourself believe for just a moment that it really was a little miracle that was orchestrated JUST FOR YOU…on your behalf for YOUR ONE AND ONLY BEAUTIFUL WILD LIFE…….please let yourself believe that it is true. And……..when you are strong enough….whenever you have the chance….and you see another one of the fold who may be lost…….please please please tell them what you know. Tell them that life is on their side…..that truth is on their side….that LOVE is on their side…..and especially that they are loved, known and important enough to be THE ONE.

YOU are the ONE….and I AM the ONE………..and I have always wondered what it meant when people would say WE ARE ALL ONE….. :) This is my way of believing that is true….we are not just all ONE….we are all THE ONE.

You are so very very very very very very very loved…….thank you for everything.

xoxoxo

melody (and kathy and all BGC staff)